Why I am an Agnostic ?

There are three kinds of people in this world . One who believes that God exists and he is called an theist . Second who disbelieves in God and he is called an atheist then there comes the Third kind who has a doubt whether God exists or not . I belong to the third kind and people like me are called Agnostic . 

Nobody is a born atheist , theist or agnostic . 

The world around changes him/her into one of the above three.  

I was an theist who used to regularly and religiously visit temples , pray to God and even adorn my forehead with "Vibuthi" (Ash ) . This was during my teens . I had few problems in my life and as I was used to believe that God will solve the problems , I started going to temple every day . Days turned into weeks and months but the problems still persisted and gradually I realized that God will not come and solve your problems even if you pray to him every day in and out . I stopped visiting him at the temples where people said that it was his home but for me it was a place where he was residing in the form of a stone . I still prayed to him but stopped idol worshiping . I stopped expecting solutions to my problems from him , instead solved them on my own . Two things happend by doing this ,  I stopped depending on someone for solving my problems and my self confidence grew more . 

This was my first step getting away from God or put it as first step towards atheism from theism . 
My problems multiplied and along with that my confidence too and i was turning completely into an atheist . There came a time after I shifted base to bombay that God became a three letter word and nothing more than that . Years flew and I stopped believing in God . My parents used to usher me sometimes to the temple on my birthday but that never made me pray to him . I used to have good amount of arguments and discussions with my parents and friends on this but no one ever came to a solid conclusion because the knowledge on the subject is such .

Then there came a phase in my life that I got married . No , I didn't start to believe in God even after that . Few incidents happened in my life where i started believing in miracles and somehow or the other my belief towards God started growing at a very leisure place . 

So there are things which still make me not to believe in God and there are other things which make me believe in him . so thus I am an Agnostic who has his own doubts . sometimes I feel like fuck the concept of God , just love those who deserve , help someone when possible and do no harm to anyone .

I shall discuss about my doubts and beliefs in another post entirely but as of now I clearly don't understand whether God exists or has taken an exit . I think Animals don't pray to God but still they have a life and they are living happily or you gonna tell me that animals do pray and it's just that we are not aware of that . ok i am not aware of that lol ;) 

one of my friend who was an atheist turned into an theist after getting married . my poor wife didn't succeed apparently ;)